First of all let me say that I am deeply sorry to hear about everybody's losses in this site. My heart is just breaking and I pray that Lord will give each one of you the necessary strength to go on with life.

I am 40 years old, my name is 'Panayota' and I live in Athens, Greece. I have a two year old daughter named 'Evanthia' which means blossoming flower. She is the light of mine and husbands life's. We were blessed with her after five years of trying, we couldn't get pregnant although the tests we did showed nothing wrong. I had a severe bleed when I was seven weeks pregnant but apart from that my pregnancy went just fine and after an easy and happy labour, we welcomed our baby.

I am an only child and I always felt the lack of brothers and sisters. I wanted to have more than one child. So three months ago we decided to try for another baby. This time we got pg by the first try. My doctor saw on the ultrasound that the baby wasn't firmly attached to the uterus and suggested I be off work and take it easy which I did. I was not worried since I hadn't seen any blood even though he had told me that I might see some. At the seven week ultrasound we saw the baby's heartbeat and again at the nine week scan. The doctor told me that since I was nine weeks and with a heartbeat it was not possible to lose the baby. When we repeated the ultrasound at ten weeks, our baby had died. It's heart had stopped at about nine and a half weeks.

Everybody keeps telling me that this is for the best. When nature or God decide to take a child its because something is really wrong and the baby wouldn't have survived. We sent some tissue for a biopsy and we are awaiting the results. Things are better than the first days but the sense of loss and despair is still here.
I was having second thoughts about trying again as I think that I can't bear another pain like this. But then I thought that I have been called a lot of names in my life but never a quitter! So we will try again and hope and pray that this time God will let us have our baby. Even if not I will know that I have tried, it is better to try and fail than not try at all.

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we are going to need all the support we can get.